Best friends are backstabbers.
Its a plain and simple fact. You think you know a person and then, tada, they act like a complete retard, hurt your feelings, and the next thing you know, you can't look them in the face anymore. Well, I guess you could say this is happening to me...again. Remember that guy who pretty much stole my heart? Yeah well, here we go, this has to do with him again. Same guy, pretty much a different issue.
He's so bipolar, I swear! I mean just two days ago he was glaring at me as we passed in the halls and today when we accidentally bumped into each other he just laughed and let me go by. I mean, is that weird at all? And when he and his friend walked by when Kiera and I were sitting outside waiting for my mom, he smiled at me. But then it made me go brain dead and I yelled at Jacob that my butt was about to burn off.
But Jacob is NOT the backstabber in this story.
So a great majority of my friends have to be picked up from school due to budget cuts at our school, so we all like to sit on the bench by the sidewalk and wait for our rides. So one of my good friends - but I will NOT use names here - was sitting next to me, and our other friend, Frankie, came up and started talking about that one guy's - again, not using names - brother, who is apparently, extremely HAWT! But what did that one friend have to say, that she knows bugs me into infinity?
"Oh yeah. I know a lot about his family. He has two brothers. His one brother is a Senior and plays the trombone!" Its like thanks so much for rubbing that in my face, but, haha, I ALREADY KNEW THAT!!!
I guess I'm just one of those people where my friends are NOT allowed to get involved with him, because I feel like they only do it because I liked him first. I mean, its difficult to sit with his other crush at lunch and watch other girls flirt with him, cause let's face it, he's a loser! Let's just put it this way, i like you you like me I'm single and you're single. What am I missing here? I mean if you're interested in me, then for God's sake ASK ME OUT! I'm not usually the kind of girl that says no. I've been single my entire life, and I'm a friggin Freshman!!!
But what I think is my problem, is that, I just don't understand. I mean, I've put so much time into this, and he's told me that he's liked me before, why makes me so...unlikeable? People who have never seen me in real life think I'm marvelous. I don't wanna be big-headed here, but I'm quiet and nice and a typically cool person to be around, but when you get a look at me, one good look, its like, suddenly I'm not the girl saying the words through the phone, or texting the things I say, or typing them out through the keyboard. Its like, when the world looks at me, I'm not longer cool and exciting, I'm just a loser. I'm just an ugly...thing, wandering around aimlessly, and I have no where to go.
I guess if you wanna put my situation(s) into perspective you could say that I'm a werewolf and this guy, he's just an innocent guy walking around. And being that I'm a werewolf I don't really care, until I get a really good look at him and I realize, I just imprinted. So now its at a point where he's gravity, holding me down, but he and I know we're just not compatible, but I HAVE to be with him. I wanna break free, but I just can't. So now I'm trapped. I say that I'm over it, cause believe me, I am soooo over this crap, but I just can't let go. So now, I'm screwed.
Again, thats what I get. For being a lovestruck teenage girl...
